What a contradictory life!

「好久沒有寫BLOG了」...似乎已經成為我每次寫BLOG第一句想到的開場白（真慚愧）。其實要找TOPIC去寫不難，只是常欠一點動機吧！

不！我要多寫一點，長的短的也可以。這樣可鼓勵自己多思考，腦袋也不至太空洞。

分享一篇文章:
Do You Embrace These Contradictions? They’re Important for Happiness.

作者提出一些生活中的矛盾觀點，有些也是頗發人心省：

1. Accept myself, and expect more of myself.
2. Use my time efficiently, yet make time to play, to wander, to read at whim, to fail.
3. Take myself less seriously—and take myself more seriously.
4.  Someplace, keep an empty shelf, and someplace, keep a junk drawer.
5. Think about myself so I can forget myself.
6. Paying close attention to something sometimes helps me to ignore it. (Like cravings.)
7. Often it takes discipline to take pleasure.
8. If I want to keep going, I must allow myself to stop.
9. The days are long, but the years are short.

也就正如我常想的：HEA 住過日子真爽……但我可不想白白地HEA掉我的人生啊！

走過阿嫲的那些年

是2012年冬至翌日拍的…留在老人院太久, 阿嫲難得回家, 居然變了個大細路四處走。回到舊居、舊居附近的粥檔、還一同整肉餅……我就這樣走過她的那些年。真好!

我要繼續好好孝順她!

My 2013 resolutions

2012 has gone. Even though there were some significant events happened (miscarriage, baptism, aussie & nagoya trip, a big project at work), i should say that i have not worked hard enough to achieve my goal set at the beginning of 2012 (even no clear goals i hv set, that's why i fail).

Here are my resolutions that have come up in my mind for year 2013. In fact, all i want is to be a better person, a better wife, daughter, friend & follower of God.

1. Give a little gift to a person every month.
2. Shop at small businesses once a week. e.g. 辦館 at my housing estate.
3. Give myself a little treat every month, e.g. buy a book, hv a coffee break or do sth that remind me of how wonderful life could be.
4. Take IELT exam. This item was on my wish list for 2 years. I would take it this yr or i should just forget it.
5. A family trip with dad, mums, sister and my brother's family!
6. Invite a friend to church & join 6 outreaching activities.
7. Lose one pound every month

....to be continued.

I hope these can help work out my happiness project for 2013.

Work life balance

My birthday reminds me that it almost comes another new year. What a pity, nothing great has been accomplished this year except the "big project" at work, which has occupied more than half of my live in the past year. I really dun mind having harsh work, as long as it is a meaningful one, but it is quite frustrated to deal with the "ever-changing" mindset and messy occasions caused by our bosses, and always need to force our contractor to meet those impossible deadlines when we finally willing to make confirmation before the dead-dead-dead line. Is that the job nature of being a PR for government body?

"Work-life balance" is my motto. I am aiming at something worth striving for in coming days. So what shall I do?
- Spend more time with my family
- Read some books
- Take an IELT exam, which I has wanted to do so since long time ago
- Shop around??! Though I dun like shopping actually
- See films

That's all for my daydreaming, hope I can realise these dreams soon.

Something happened

自詡身體壯健，總想不到這事情還是會發生在自己身上（是甚麼？不詳述了，反正現在無事）。不過，還是感恩自己一直平安地經歷當中的得與失，平安得懷疑自己是否太處之泰然，太看輕了事情？

半夜睡醒，想起未祈禱（好歹也經歷了一些事情，應多禱告倚靠神吧！）向神的禱告是，我可以用平常心看待發生在自己身上不太好的事，可以調整自已的心態毋須哭喪著臉，不過，還是不可以因而輕看了神的安慰，仍要多倚靠衪和尋求祂的旨意。 這是給自己學習的功課。

心存感激的，還有父母的愛護，尤其是作母親的，她們的不辭勞苦，折騰一番，弄得腰酸背痛，還把我的家打掃得前所未有的清潔，教我自愧平日實在太不孝！

還發現，儘管自己多討厭現在的上司，即使我一直認為工作不應是生命中的first priority，我對工作的責任感仍是很重的。至少得知要放數天病假，我第一件痛心的事是剛好工作上的project有新進展，我正期待著手處理，卻又不得不放手。還有，首次主動縮短病假要提早復工（真犯賤呢！）。

Anyway, 朋友不用擔心，我還是好端端的！

桃姐

出乎意外，《桃姐》不煽情不催淚，我卻偏喜愛它這種平實的描寫手法，令電影所描述的一段情誼更貼近現實感受。其實，現實中相似的情節每天都在我們的身邊發生，一點也不陌生，但在鏡頭下如此真實地呈現這些一點一滴，我倒佩服導演的資料搜集功夫做得足，也有那份洞察力，把平凡不過的東西化成表達感情的最佳手法。

看著《桃姐》，也不期然想到同樣在老人院生活的阿嫲，她自幼無微不至的照顧孫兒，把他們養成嘴刁的少爺，還有在老人院中，她總是口說「唔得閒唔好o黎」，但在常在門口等待、探望她時又怕耽誤我們而催我們「走走走」、還有和她手拖手行公園、讚她「靚女」時靦腆的笑........這些都是十分熟悉的情節，自己也如走入電影角色之中。

珍惜當下相處的時光，應該是讓自己無憾的方法吧！

2012 Resolution

回首2011，很怠慢的一年，訂下了的計劃似乎都沒有怎麼實行。真的work out了的，是和一家人去了布吉旅行。其他的個人狀況，包括工作、學習、信仰、生活，都沒有大改變。

老實說，已經躲懶了不止一年。不想繼續浪費光陰，應該將2012的計劃付諸實行。

2012 Resolution 待定中。每年我都會騰出一些時間獨自到心儀的coffee shop思索一下自己的目標，並把最真心的立志寫在schedule上。今年的resolution某些已記在心上，有些仍待思索。可以的話，稍後在這裡分享一下。

P.S. 剛播完的tvb劇集《天與地》片尾曲，不斷地在腦海loop完又loop。歌詞寫得太深刻...
"只可惜生命是必須妥協.........."  "只可惜生活是一聲發洩"......

我仍想提醒自己，盡量不要習慣了妥協......尤其對那些反智和獨大的人和事。

願2012年，昂首向前。